How To: Surviving Finals Week

That time year is upon us… again. 30 seconds ago we were dealing with midterms, and now we are struggling to keep it together for 10 minutes at a time! Gaaaahhh…


So, here are a few tips to making it through this dreadful time:


  1. Take breaks! Your brain is wired in a way that a 6 hour study bender isn’t very effective. I study for a while, then find snacks or talk with people or even watch TV.
  2. All-nighters are a myth. Truth. Your brain NEEDS sleep. So, all that information you stayed up to cram into your brain has no way to “harden.” Study until you’re reasonably tired… then go to bed. Studies have shown that a good night’s sleep does more for you than that sleepless-cram night. Just ask neuro-psychologist John Medina.
  3. Remember the taking breaks part? Yeah, use one of those breaks at the gym. Yet another scientifically proven fact that I don’t care to cite right now.
  4. RELAX!! This is just a final. This final does not determine your worth. It does not dictate how your life will turn out. You are a good person who does good work. And if it doesn’t turn out how you want, tomorrow is another day.
  5. Create a study-friendly environment: cuddle up on the couch (NOT YOUR BED, we don’t want to associate sleep with studying. At least I don’t.) with some comfy blankets, turn on background noise if you need it, have delicious beverages and comfort-brain food nearby.
  6. Combat procrastination. Try small, semi-frequent study sessions. I, personally, turn on the TV so I get noise AND some fun. Remember, studying isn’t going to last forever. At some point, you’re going to have to take the exam. Face it. It’s a fact.
  7. Day of: wear the clothes you normally wear, do the things you normally do, sit in the seat you normally sit in (if you can). Human brains like patterns. Our memories are associated with certain sensory information. So, do your best to mimic a regular day and your brain may have just a little bit easier time recalling that desired information.
  8. Studying: everyone studies differently. Now really isn’t the time to start something new. Do what you’ve done all semester; maybe add a little bit more. Or even just a little bit more time. Just don’t go overboard.


You’ll make it through this, I promise. At some point the semester has to end. The sooner we get the exams out of the way, the sooner it’s behind us… and then CHRISTMAS IS HERE!! 😀


A few thoughts on the Web

For those of you who don’t know, it’s the year 2015. There is quite a bit of technology out there. It would even seem that there has been an incredible technological boom in the last 20 years.

I remember when the first iPhone came out—I was positive that it would flop. I was in the 8th grade and remember thinking that there is no way a phone could be a touch screen. How naïve I was… Since then, I have frequently been surprised by the progress of technology.

MIT’s publishes an annual technological review detailing the headliners of that year’s innovations. It’s important to note that not all of the products are available. For some of these, it’s only the major groundwork that has been laid. But that is not a small thing! I mean, this year the list includes Magic Leap (a device that can make virtual objects appear in real life), car-to-car communication, Liquid Biopsy (a blood test to catch cancer early), and Megascale Desalination (a cost-effective way of desalinating seawater to make it potable… available now). [1] More information on these and the full list can be found here.

Needless to say, there has been a lot going on! So many positive things. But then we enter The War. With so much technology and opportunities, it seems that we have a whole new generation that has grown up with these items. They know how to operate them with ease. I was surprised when I heard a friend’s three-year-old learned how to run the DVD player! Yet, I judge my parents for their inability to handle their technology. It seems that it largely comes down to our exposure.

But that’s just it: The War focuses largely on exposure. Just what is too much? And at the heart of it all, is technology and social media good or bad?

If you ask the average mother in the grocery store, she might share something about how her precious son is now a zombified shell of what he used to be. Or she may share that without that stupid movie Frozen, she would have lost her sanity ages ago to her toddler.

Again, it would seem that there are positives and negatives. So, how do we sift through them?


The Pros: Self-esteem, communication


In an article for CNN, Kelly Wallace discusses “The Upside of Selfies.” She reveals that there seems to be a larger positive effect of social media on self-esteem than negative. Wallace reports the findings on a study of social media stating that, “in the survey of more than 1,000 13-to 17-year olds about how they view their digital lives, 28% said social networking made them feel more outgoing versus 5% who said it made them feel less so.” [2] Simply put, your child’s Facebook account may actually help improve their self-esteem. You don’t hear about that much in the news, do you. No. Instead, the news is comprised of story after story regarding cyber bullying and its effects. Yes, this particular form of bullying is crushingly painful—a child can’t escape it as easily as walking home. However, I think it’s important that we embrace the positive qualities of social media. If not for any other reason, than just to let our kids feel a little better about themselves.

Back to cyber bullying. With the increased use of social media, we also have children who are “getting online” at younger and younger ages. The parenting decisions involved in that are irrelevant here except to say that perhaps the best way to mitigate the dangers of cyber bullying is raising a healthy and aware child. The internet is not going away. It really isn’t, sorry, Grandma. I believe that just as we teach children how to handle bullying in the classroom or schoolyard, we also need to incorporate lessons regarding social media.

Perhaps it’s time for a little comic relief. Check out the interview comedian Mark Malkoff conducts asking school-children about social media:



 A 2013 study conducted by Micah O. Mazurek found that adults diagnosed with autism spectrum disorders who use social media are more likely to have close friends. [4] Looking closer, adults with ASD are known to struggle with interpersonal relationships; the social skills we came by honestly generally have to be consciously learned. Screen technology offers the opportunity to communicate with other individuals without having to interpret that non-verbal communication that proves so difficult.

But, think about the bigger picture! Social media can help your child. Again, there is the risk of cyber bullying, but there is also the empirically supported idea that social media helps those with ASD develop and maintain relationships. However, there is still a need to research the interaction between online and offline relationships.


The Cons: Brain Chemistry, cyber-bullying


So, you child appears to be addicted to his/her phone. He/she can’t seem to break eye contact with their screen long enough for a conversation. There’s now a diagnosis for that: Internet Addiction Disorder. I am not kidding you. You’re welcome. A Chinese study found that those brains addicted to the internet respond the same exact way as those addicted to other substances. [5] Wow!

A pill popper obviously consumes a pill then receives a high. Someone with IAD gets their high from checking media, email, or what-have-you. This one is an attention thing. A person becomes addicted to the tension release associate with having been paid attention. It’s psychology 101.

I’ve discussed addicts before. Once again I will say, addiction sucks. I’m guessing that someone experiences these compulsive acts are suffering just as I did. And their families aren’t too happy, just as mine wasn’t.

Additionally, I mentioned cyber-bullying. It’s nasty. I mean, bullying in general is nasty. But to me, there is something about being bullied in a space that is supposed to be separate from the school yard. Five thousand 15-24 year old kids commit suicide each year. That’s just the statistics of successful suicides—it doesn’t even touch on the attempts. A British study found that at least half of juvenile suicides are connected to bullying. [6] Just to add to it: 42% of teens with access report experiencing cyber-bullying each year. [7] Scary.

I could go on to further discuss cyber-bullying, but I don’t think it’s necessary. There are plenty of resources out there (and online!) for you to read if you want more information. Personally, I think it’s starting to become a well discussed topic because it greatly impacts our kids. Parents generally want happy, healthy kids. Monitoring their internet use and their demeanor are part of the package.


The Big Picture: what’s awesome & sucky


The Awesome: The internet is always available! You don’t have to wait until business hours to get the information, so much information, you need. And work—you can continue that at home if you want to, too! Finally, my personal favorite: it’s so easy to contact people. I am able to connect with friends and family from the present and the past. It’s wonderful


The Sucky: There is always danger in life. In every area, there is something to worry about. The internet is no different. The internet facilities all sort of illegal activity. You can coordinate drug and human trafficking. You can purchase things you probably shouldn’t have (but that’s not illegal). But you can also find some disgusting things to fix whatever disgusting urges you have (child porn, etc.). And there is the cyber-bullying.



Final Thoughts


All in all, I guess I feel a little defensive of the internet. For the last few years, all I’ve heard is about how the internet and technology is destroying today’s youth. I hardly think this is the case. With advances in any aspect of human life, there are risks. That’s how it goes. Yes! Your kid could be completely overcome by the internet, but no one ever said that teens have good judgment. In fact, all the evidence says the opposite: their frontal lobes aren’t finished forming. They are physically incapable of making good decisions. Instead of bashing technology, maybe it’s time to step up and teach others how to be responsible? I don’t know. That’s just what I think.

My personal motto is that there are some things that are best said in person. There are some things that you just don’t need to comment on or add to the chaos. Some people just like creating fires and watching them burn. There are also some things that I should probably keep to myself… so I do. Most of the time.

It’s easy to find the bad in anything. I believe that it is best to acknowledge the negative, but look to the best.

Now, I have to confess. I didn’t start this blog for fun. I didn’t. A college course I was enrolled in required some sort of relationship with the internet. I WILL say that having a blog is something I have dreamed of doing. Bucket List: CHECK!

Personally, the internet makes me a little paranoid. The idea that you can google my name and come up with an entire resume of information is scary. But then again, I also consider myself to be relatively good at handling my online presence. I love sharing my thoughts and ideas, I do! With great power comes great responsibility, right? So, maybe when it comes to being online, people need to get a little smarter.

Once again, that’s not to say that there aren’t positive aspects of an online presence– there are! I mentioned the benefits to self-esteem via “selfies.” I would be remisced to say that that is the only opportunity to feel better about yourself. I mean—my blog! I get notifications when someone “likes” or “follows” or “comments” on a post. I assure you that the warm-fuzzies that accompany these messages are just as good, if not better, than when I receive positive feedback from a Facebook “selfie.”

It all comes down to you, obviously. What do you think of the internet? The good and the bad. But, more importantly, how do you compose yourself online? Think about it.





[1]       10 Breakthrough Technologies 2015 | MIT Technology Review. (2015, February 18). Retrieved December 8, 2015, from


[2]       Social media positive for teens? Maybe! – (n.d.). Retrieved December 8, 2015, from


[3]       What Kids REALLY Think About Social Media. (n.d.). Retrieved December 8, 2015, from


[4]       Mazurek, M. (n.d.). Social media use among adults with autism spectrum disorders. Computers in Human Behavior, 1709-1714.


[5]       How Facebook (FB) is Altering Your Mind… – David Rainoshek. (2015, November 13). Retrieved December 13, 2015, from


[6]       Cyberbullying Rampant on the Internet. (n.d.). Retrieved December 8, 2015, from


[7]       Bullying Statistics. (n.d.). Retrieved December 10, 2015, from





So, your toddler has a snow day…

You spent your entire childhood (and adulthood, let’s face it) loving snow days. I mean, come on! It’s a free day at home!


And then you had a toddler.


Remember how you were going to be the best mother ever? You weren’t going to be that frazzled, exhausted mother—no—you were going to be The Best. So far, you’ve been The Okayest at the whole parenting thing.


And then the snow day happened.


It was just another day at work. You had been watching the weather reports, hoping for some snow. Come on, the brown grass just looks sooo much better under a blanket of magic. Then the clouds rolled it and the powder began to fall.


As you stared out the window, it hit you: you should probably go pick up your kid from daycare while the roads are still decent. So, you pack up your stuff, get in the car, and head down the road. In your mind, you’re assembling a list of things you want to get done now that you’ll have the afternoon at home.


Hahahahaha! I laugh at you. Hahahaha! You think you’re going to get anything done?!


You and your little one arrive home. You start in on your list and your toddler runs around the house.


Fast forward three minutes: your toddler wants pretzels. You get him pretzels.


Back to your list.


Fast forward five minutes: your toddler, who is just starting to potty train, wants to go to the bathroom. You take off his pants and diaper and walk him into the bathroom…. And he never pees.


So, you figure why not use the snow day to potty train?!


Good luck with that.


Your toddler will now spend the day walking around the house with his junk hanging out. Really, he’s pretty good at going to the potty when he wants to… but god forbid you go in with him. Or ask if he needs to go. He’s a grown two year old, don’t you know, mama??


And you’re back to your list again. But he wants more snacks. He wants you to pick him up and put him down… 3 times before you get smart and say now.


Then you’re starting to get frustrated. He’s a ball of energy that missed his nap.

There are just so many things you planned to do! So you turn on the TV.


Don’t think that’ll give you a break—it’s just going to add more noise.


He’s walking around the house, throwing toys, and screaming “Let it goooo, let it goooo, let it gooooo.”


Before you freak out, here are a few pointers:


  1. Feed the kid. Pretzels, cheese, crackers, fruit, milk, juice… whatever. Just shove food down his throat. They can’t talk too well if they’re chewing.
  2. Accept that you’ll have a partially naked toddler running around the house if you are trying to potty train. Bonus: he sets himself on the toilet. Minimal work for you.
  3. Whatever it was you planned on doing today, forget it. Find something else unimportant to do. Even that might not get done.
  4. Eventually that kid is going to want an actual meal. So, make sure you have some Mac & Cheese or Spaghetti O’s on hand. Don’t pretend you’re a gourmet chef, because you’re not.
  5. Have an arsenal of activities at the ready: crayons and paper, books, toys, playdough, what have you. Be prepared to redirect him every seven minutes.
  6. If the roads aren’t terrible, go to the store. You don’t need anything… but go anyway. It’ll get you (and your toddler!) out of the house (BONUS: adult contact!). Just know that you’ll probably spend a lot of money on completely unnecessary things.


Today has been a long day. You and I both know it. You also know that you’ve had better parenting days. You’ve also had worse parenting days.


That daycare provider is a saint. And you’re a pretty darn good mother.

Combat Boots & Sippy Cups

I am a soldier.

But, I’m also a mother.

I have been in the military for just over 6 years at this point, working on the next six. I love the army, I really do.

At this point in my life, I’m working on building a family. I have a husband and a child. I love them so much.

But, there’s a problem.

I spend weekends… weeks… months away from them, and it’s hard. I have a duty to both.

I missed my son’s first steps.

I missed my son’s first words.

I missed the start of potty training.

I missed witnessing his vocabulary expand exponentially.

I missed those tuck-ins and bedtime songs.

I missed wrestling him into pajamas.

I have missed so much.

I miss my husband.

I miss being there for him when he’s exhausted.

I miss helping clean the house.

I miss taking Gus so he can nap.

I miss being present.


I want to be the best wife and mother I can possibly be. But, I also want to be the best soldier I can be. If there is a perfect balance between the two, I can’t seem to find it.

With development in one area, the other seems to suffer. I’m stuck.

I want to be home with my family, but I can’t stand the idea of leaving my brothers and sisters behind. Guilt.


I have watched my peers move forward in their lives. I have watched them go to college and graduate. I have watched them obtain “adult” jobs. I have watched them grow into the type of people we all once dreamed of being. I see their normal, happy lives and I am jealous.

I joined the army. I went to training. I came home and left again for the desert. I returned and drank. and drank. and drank. I started college and got pregnant. I kept going to school through the birth of my son. By the time I graduate, my peers will have been in the workforce for 3 years.

I love my life, don’t get me wrong. It is beautiful… but it sometimes hurts. I wish I didn’t have to say good-bye to my family. I wish I didn’t feel so far behind. I wish I didn’t have to choose between the military and my family.


Maybe I’m just feeling sorry for myself. I’ve decided that’s okay, though. One day, I’ll reach the “adulthood” dream I created for myself. One day my children will understand why I was constantly leaving and returning.

One day I will be okay with my decisions. I hope.

At the Bottom of a Bottle

I want to talk about addiction.

I’m not sure how to go about that without sounding callous.

Addiction sucks. It sucks for the community. It sucks for the family. It sucks for the person. Just downright blows.

The other day, I overheard a friend talking about their family member who is off the wagon. And while the decisions their sibling had made were terrible, I wanted so badly to step in. I wanted to scream that addiction wasn’t about them.

Yeah, people are caught in the crossfire. They are hurt and sometimes killed. It’s not okay. But I doubt the average person understands what it’s like to have your life ruled by a substance.

The poor decisions and the pain caused to love ones are rarely about others. It’s about them. Addicts are self-centered. How else would an individual sacrifice just about anything for a high?

So, quit it. Your cousin that causes your aunt so much pain isn’t doing it maliciously. The stealing and the lying aren’t because they hate the world. Chances are, it’s because those are the means in which to reach a high. Because that’s the goal. We want to feel something else.

I want to feel something else.

For me, it was alcohol. I struggled. I rationalized the shit out of my drinking.

“Oh, it’s okay. It’s after 5pm.”

“Oh, it’s okay. It’s the weekend.”

“Oh, it’s okay. Today was Monday… Wednesday… Thirsty Thursday… Finally Friday. Better tie one on.”

“Oh, it’s okay. It’s summer!”

“Oh, it’s okay. I’m young; I’m supposed to do this.”

“Oh, it’s okay. It’s only 3pm.”

“Oh, it’s okay. It’s after noon.”

“Oh, it’s okay… it’s almost noon.”

And then there’s actually getting my hands on it.

Normal, happy, healthy people don’t spend extended periods of time in the liquor store deciding on what wine to get. Well, they don’t spend that time checking the alcohol content on the bottles to figure out which wine will get me more drunk for less money.

Normal, happy, healthy people don’t start freaking out when the alcohol is getting low. They don’t consider driving 45 minutes to the nearest store that sells off sale after 10pm.

Normal, happy, healthy people don’t do that. They don’t.

And it’s impossible to explain to someone just how mindless an addict feels.

How you spend SO much time during the day thinking about your next high or your last one.

How you might now have any money, but you certainly can find enough to purchase your vice.

How you once said that you would never be in this position, but here you are. And you don’t know how you got so low.

I am frustrated.

I am frustrated as I listen to people discuss addiction, especially when they have never encountered it personally. I am frustrated as people look so far down on addicts.

It’s so easy to categorize people as good and bad. But honestly, some of the best people I know are addicts.

Chances are, there is more to their story.

Chances are, there is some sort of trauma—physical, psychological, or otherwise—that somehow brought them here.

Chances are, this is all they have ever known.

Everybody is fighting something. Some demons are easier too see.

Mine comes in a bottle.

But yours might be your own shadow.